Surprise || Kurtofsky [Mac Reunion 2020]
Kurt’s head snapped back and he quickly shook it from side to side. No, Dave didn’t get to go and blame himself for this when he really did nothing wrong; Dave feeling sorry for him in any way was the last thing Kurt wanted because it was kind of a shot to his pride in a way. He was the one being irrational and high-strung about this and Dave shouldn’t really be apologizing about anything to him. “No, no, I know how it is, trust me.” He paused, realizing the double meaning behind that—the double part being about how things can just happen when Sam is involved, not that he was comparing the two situations. “I get it, things happen, you don’t get to plan out every step of your life and I shouldn’t expect you to tell me these things anymore.” He licked his lips nervously. That was it, then. Up until now it felt like their break-up had just been them putting their relationship on pause, but this changed things. They weren’t on pause. Life went on and both of them had to move with it. After taking a moment, he let out a breath and forced himself to meet Dave’s eyes again. “I’m sorry. For making this weird.” He was never that great at apologies.
Here Dave was, completely ready to get into a bit of an argument with Kurt and was already blaming himself and felt like he might as well throw himself into the doghouse for things picking up with Sam the way they had, and to Dave’s complete surprise, the whole thing turned around, and Kurt changed his tone entirely. Which…. was surprising enough to Dave to make him listen. And as the words came out of Kurt’s mouth and Dave began to process them, he realized in that moment that maybe it was going to be fine, and his own reaction had been a bit unnecessary. Of course it didn’t change the fact that Dave still admittedly felt bad about not giving Kurt notice about all of this, but he definitely at least was relieved to know that Kurt wasn’t too worked up about it or anything. He just hoped that it didn’t close future opportunity with Kurt if the time ever came… especially because their break up had much less to do with needing an emotional break than it did have to do with both of them moving in different directions with their careers and lives. They’d still been happy together, and it had ultimately been career paths to separate them, which was why he was guessing it had been so awkward for the two of them to stay in contact. And Dave didn’t want it to seem because of all of this like he didn’t care about Kurt or about what they’d had, or that he’d dropped everything to go run off with Sam because he hadn’t…. and he admittedly thought about it a lot. And it was partially why he hadn’t told Kurt in the first place… out of his own fear for his reaction. But one way or another, he was relieved to hear Kurt’s response a bit, even it by no means made him want to give himself slack in it. He wasn’t willing to completely relieve himself in the situation, not until he could really be sure Kurt meant what he said.
"You didn’t make it weird, Kurt… you have a right to know. We just hadn’t really told anyone yet and uh… I guess I was also kinda worried about what you’d think of it with everything else. It still isn’t an excuse on my end, I should’ve let you know."
Surprise || Kurtofsky [Mac Reunion 2020]
He didn’t even know why he bothered pretending or why he thought Dave maybe wouldn’t be able to read him after all this time. Although they were still skirting on the issues, since Dave hadn’t specifically said what Kurt didn’t have to lie to him about and Kurt didn’t want to make any rash assumptions, though he was pretty sure they were referring to the same thing. “What, no, why would I lie? I’m perfectly fine. Really. Just surprised. I didn’t think… I mean, you know.” He made a vague hand gesture and stopped himself in the middle of it. He really shouldn’t be picking up on that habit. “…With Sam,” he added, not really sure why. It was awkward for him for obvious reasons—obvious to him anyway, and probably to Sam, if he were here listening to the conversation. But Dave didn’t know about the thing that happened between the two of them and they probably needed to keep it that way. He wouldn’t so-to-speak ‘out’ Sam about it if the blonde didn’t want people knowing about it, so he couldn’t really say anything even if he wanted to. “But it’s fine. Not like I haven’t been with other guys since we…” He bit his tongue there. He hadn’t meant to go there, but in his head that part seemed to justify Dave being that way with Sam. He turned slightly, looking off to the side, hoping to find something to distract himself.
Dave blinked, nodding for a second as the truth, or what needed to come out came out of Kurt’s mouth as exactly what he’d feared became a reality. And Kurt had every right to feel the way that he did, Dave couldn’t really say that he had a reason to keep it from him, or that he’d thought much about it other than thinking that Sam and him sort of slipping into things. It hadn’t even been something he’d thought about much… but really, he’d just gone with it. And he knew that wasn’t an excuse. Not after what he’d told Kurt when they broke up. Dave felt his emotions begin to creep up on him as he forced himself to speak, not really sure what he could say in that moment.
"I… I’m so sorry, Kurt. It wasn’t something that I ever expected, me and Sam have always just been really good friends and it just…. happened. And I know that isn’t a good enough excuse…. you deserve better."
Surprise || Kurtofsky [Mac Reunion 2020]
Kurt lifted his head at the all too familiar voice and caught Dave’s gaze. Of course, they couldn’t just go on avoiding the giant elephant in the room all night, could they? As much as Kurt wished they could. He wanted to ask about it; he had so many questions, but none of them really seemed appropriate. It wasn’t any of his business. Besides, he didn’t want to appear like the jealous ex-boyfriend, so he just forced a smile onto his face in attempt to return the pleasantry, hoping that Dave would no longer notice the difference.
"Hey. Yeah, I’m great. This is great." He nearly winced at how unconvincing that sounded, but there was nothing he could really do about it now that it was out there, and he hated how he was the one making things awkward when they didn’t have to be.
It didn’t take much for Dave to hear the unease in Kurt’s voice. He was clearly not happy, and Dave couldn’t help but feel horrible about it. He should have told Kurt about Sam, or the little that there really was between them, but… what was he supposed to say? He’d never had intention of running to Sam the second he moved to the other coast, but rather had caught up with an old friend and had been surprised by how much they’d enjoyed their company together. Dave felt in a lot of ways like he’d made a horrible mistake in that moment, wishing he’d at least told Kurt about this before the reunion had happened, if not halted the whole thing in it’s tracks in the first place. He wasn’t…wrong to have let himself be happy with Sam even if it was right after he and Kurt had broken up, was he?
"…You don’t have to lie to me Kurt, it’s okay."
Surprise || Kurtofsky [Mac Reunion 2020]
Something was off and Kurt could tell. Every glance, every movement—he knew what they meant. He’d been there. And he kind of wished he was more naive and clueless as he kept glancing up over the rim of his cup just to catch the little bits of interaction between the two. It made things worse that he’s actually been with both of them—in different ways but the fact still stood. He wasn’t even sure what he’d expected. Did he think Dave would stay single and wait for him or something? No, no he didn’t. But why with Sam? And why was he finding out like this? His discomfort was probably irrational and unjustifiable but he couldn’t help the fact that it was there. Maybe he was subconsciously comparing himself to Sam, but thinking of that possibility only made him feel worse. He liked Sam and he had absolutely no ill will towards him but this… this was strange and unexpected and uncomfortable. He forced himself to look away before either could catch him watching and instead stared down into the contents of his cup as he leaned against the far wall in the room. He almost wished that this could be like the old high school days when Mr. Schuester would notice something was wrong and would come up to talk to him about it, but he wasn’t a kid anymore and he didn’t need the guidance, and Mr. Schuester didn’t need to hear about his petty and probably selfish concerns.
The night so far was everything he could have hoped, and it was so great to see all the people he cared about once again. It was crazy surreal how far so many of them had come, and how much being in Lima with everyone else again made him think about the past and how far he had come too. But one way or another, through all of the hardship and the growth they’d all ended up there somehow, and Dave was proud of the guy that he’d become. The only thing he’d yet to do that night was speak to Kurt, and catch up with him, and maybe it was because there was a part of him in his gut that didn’t know what that was going to be like, especially cause he’d spent a lot of the night with Sam. But he knew he couldn’t avoid it forever, and that the sooner the two talked, the sooner everything was gonna be exactly like he hoped it would. Dave made his way over in Kurt’s direction and away from Sam, forming a smile on his face as he greeted Kurt for the first time that night.
"Hey Kurt… how are you? Having a good time?"
HAPPY TWO YEARS “DAVETHEDREAMER”!!
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AN OOC THANK YOU:
Because this is OOC I did want to post this now and on the appropriate date of Dave’s two year, even if the date is a little awkward with the reunion and whatnot. However!
To think about the fact that Make a Change has been going for two long years now and still going strong, and that I’ve had Dave now for two years is absolutely surreal. Thank you to all the amazing role players of Make a Change who make the group what it is, and thank you to all who have followed Dave’s journey along the way, from McKinley bully, to teddy bear, to US Army Private, to published author. Dave’s account has reached 62 Followers and has made a total of 2,350 posts since the account was first started on March 2nd, 2012, and I am truly grateful for all of the support for Dave and his plots along the way! You guys are seriously the best, and I never could have even imagined having an account for two years like this. It’s my longest running account, and as a roleplayer, and a member of MAC I am so proud of that. Here’s to what is to come!
-Torrey (Dave’s Player).
To say Dave was stoked about the reunion was an understatement. He knew it was gonna be a blast to see everyone again, and to see how people were coming along and all that. He was proud of where he was honestly too, so he was more than glad to be attending the reunion again to see everyone, especially Sam, who he hadn’t seen for a little while now because of the insanity of his own schedule mixed with Sam’s. But that was all going to be different tonight, because he’d get to see Sam, and spend time with his friends, and everything was going to go according to plan and it was going to be a great weekend. But of course, even Dave had one or two things that had come across in his mind about the whole thing.
He hadn’t seen Kurt since their breakup, and while he was positive it was all gonna go fine, Dave couldn’t help but feel sort of bad in the pit of his stomach for his own actions and focusing on his own desire to have Kurt make the move with him. And now, sort of by chance and accident he was sorta having a thing under the radar with Sam, and even if it had started out with just catching up with Sam as friends originally, it had very quickly turned into more than that. But all Dave could do was hope for the best and hope it wasn’t too uncomfortable as he walked up to the door of Mr. Schue’s place, only to make his way inside. And even if he didn’t know what was gonna happen, Dave was still pretty excited about all of this.
What would you say is your biggest achievement?
Wow. That’s a big question, I mean… there’s a lot I’m proud of now. I think, above everything though, I’m really proud I found myself. It’s so much better just being happy being me.
I'm not the most out going person. I thought I should state that first. I'm gay. Well a lesbian, I guess, because I'm a girl. I'm not like all the ones you see on tv. I'm just a shy nerdy 15 year old. I'm not even sure if I could come out. I heard somewhere that you're gay, and you're not the type of person we see on tv, so I thought you would understand. What do I need to know about the world? Is there a place for plain people? Should I come out? Am I going too fast?
Hey…. well thanks for coming to me about this, it means a lot. I’m glad I can be someone you can talk to about it. I know how scary it can be…I had a lot of fears about it in high school myself, and uh, yeah… I wasn’t the most outgoing about it either, in the right way at least. I do get it though. I’d probably tell you that sometimes it’s gonna be hard, I won’t lie, but at the end of the day your happiness matters more than any of the hate and the words of bullies and all that, and what people think. Took me a while to learn that lesson myself, so yeah…. just, always remember to stay true to you. And it’s not bad to be brave… it’s good. But yeah, I know it’s easier said and done, and how scary it is… so feel free to talk to me about it anytime if you need other advice. I’m just really flattered you’d ask for my help at all.
Sorry if I'm over stepping, but would you mind giving advice to someone younger and not as wise as you?
Hey Anon, sure, I mean, I can do the best I can. What’s up?